Thursday, December 15, 2005

It took the best years of my life
And made it so I couldn't decide
Static as in prisons
Static as in life
They said they had their reasons
But coming from above
You got what their decisions inside your factory
But one thing they can't teach you is how to feel free
And stand up in the beautiful world
We only respond..
Schools are prisons
-Sex Pistols, "Schools are Prisons"

So as of tomorrow at 6:20pm, I am finished with college for good. I'll have my almost useful but very fun fiction degree. Now, I've been in school since I was 3 years old. That's 19 years of having classes and teachers to structure my life, my time and my thoughts. I think the root of my recent freaking out about graduation is not over if I'll find a job (of course I will) or any kind of success, it's about all this time I'll have to fill. For once, I'll have to run my own life and well, that kind of scares me.

But I'm sure I'll be fine. I'm looking forward to having more time to spend with friends, to work on non school related writing and also to explore some new/forgotten interests of mine, like playing the violin and performing poetry, staying up to watch the sunrise, taking little trips and in general, having more time for chaos, for fucking around, for relaxing.

What scares me the most, though is losing contact with my school friends, after I'm gone. It'll be sad not see them every day. So if you're my school friend, please keep in touch.

posted at 12:35 PM |