Sunday, April 17, 2005

I'm about to throw the universe a BIG curve..
what is the least thing you would expect to hear me say?
Besides "Cook me up a big steak"..
it would be that I'm quitting sex, right?

Well, let the planes crash and the fault lines crawl.
I have just made my first good decision ever!
I am quitting sex until the end of the school year.

Why?
For one, I've been bored with it lately. I've done too much. I'm desensitized. The kinks and fetishes which used to rock my world now leave me numb and terribly confused. I can't get turned on by physical things when I have so much to worry about. I need to get my shit together. I need to go to class, turn in my work, get some writing done, find a job and a place to live.
And how am I supposed to do that if I'm up all night having sex, then spending my days dwelling on it?

I know this will be hard. I am going to be very lonely at bedtime. The sex I will not miss so much as having someone to snuggle up next to and guard my body while I journey to dreamland. I often have disturbing and fucked up nightmares when I sleep alone.

But I'm sure they will fade and I will be proud of myself this summer when I have straight A's and am gainfully employed.

posted at 10:40 PM |